Nothing in this world happens without the permission of Allah.
No meeting.
No separation.
No attachment of the heart.
What we shared did not come from randomness. It came from qadr — divine decree — unfolding exactly as it was written, even if my heart wished to read a different ending.
Our conversations felt rare, not because they promised permanence, but because they were sincere. There was depth, honesty, and reflection — qualities that Islam teaches us to value deeply. Truth was spoken without deception. Boundaries were acknowledged. Respect was maintained even when the heart wanted closeness.
And still, we did not stay together.
In Islam, not every meeting is meant to become a union. Some are meant to be a test, others a reminder, and some a redirection. Allah brings people into our lives not only to give us comfort, but sometimes to awaken us — to show us where we stand spiritually, emotionally, and morally.
She did not turn away because of cruelty. She turned away because clarity was granted. Allah gives clarity to hearts when something is not written to continue, even if affection exists. This is mercy, not punishment.
The Prophet ﷺ taught us that hearts are between the fingers of Allah. If a heart inclines toward something, it is by His will. And if it turns away, it is also by His will. No amount of desire can override what Allah has not decreed.
I came carrying a situation that was unfinished — responsibilities that demanded attention, obligations that could not be postponed. Islam teaches us that rights must be fulfilled before new commitments are taken. A heart that fears Allah will not step into what it knows it cannot carry with justice.
She saw that truth. And she chose not to step forward.
That choice does not diminish my worth, nor does it make her wrong. It simply means that Allah did not write union at this time.
And what Allah does not write, no one can force.
There is pain in being understood and still not chosen. But Islam teaches us that not being chosen by a person does not mean being abandoned by Allah. Sometimes Allah removes a door because behind it lies distraction, not peace.
The Prophet ﷺ said:
If Allah loves a servant, He protects him from the dunya just as you protect your sick from harmful food.
Perhaps this separation was protection — from imbalance, from attachment that could grow without stability, from love that would struggle under unresolved responsibility.
What we shared was not wasted. In Islam, sincerity is never wasted. Every honest word, every respectful boundary, every moment of reflection counts as something seen by Allah, even if it does not become a relationship.
I no longer ask why did she not choose me.
I ask what is Allah asking me to choose now.
Patience.
Responsibility.
Growth.
Tawbah where needed.
Trust where fear remains.
Some connections are not meant to continue forward. They are meant to turn us back to Allah, to remind us that hearts find rest only in Him.
Allah says in the Qur’an:
Perhaps you love a thing and it is bad for you; and perhaps you hate a thing and it is good for you. Allah knows, and you do not know. (2:216)
I release this story with sabr and tawakkul.
If Allah has written something better, it will arrive without confusion.
If He has written reunion, it will come with ease.
And if He has written separation, then in it there is wisdom — even if my heart learns it slowly.
I place this matter back with Allah, where it always belonged.
And that is peace.
